We walked in when Janessa’s mom was telling her story. She
was at the laundry mat with her nine year old daughter. All of a sudden she
heard fire crackers and asked her mom why? Janessa’s mom thought they were too,
but a friend said they were gun shots. Then Janessa told her mom her stomach
hurt. Her mom looked and saw what looked like a cigarette burn. Her friend
realized it was a gun shot. She was rushed to the hospital. Her mom recalled
the last things her daughter said to her and shared how amazing her little girl
was. Many tears were shed, many people were holding
each other. On stage congressmen, police officers, pastors and faith based
organizations stood to support the family. An innocent life taken, in the wrong
place at the wrong time.
Then this mother, who had just lost her daughter to
senseless violence, said in a loud voice…”I forgive the ones who were involved
in this shooting.”
Tears streamed down my face. My resolve grew even stronger.
Why do these kids do these things? Why do they think shooting at each other is
going to solve anything?
It took me back to 2011. My mother was dying of cancer,
Elijah was playing football at an underprivileged high school and we were
barely surviving. I read on Facebook that a young African American boy was shot
in the head during a Russian roulette game, from Edison high school. It grieved
my heart, but I was so disconnected from it, the reality of this life did not
scathe me. The next day, while I was at a football practice I met a young man,
who played football with my son. He was a very nice looking man, with
enchanting eyes and a strong sense of pride. I engaged him, asking about his
life and why he wasn’t practicing. He shared that his friend had just been shot
and killed and didn’t feel like practicing. I determined, through our
conversation, that it was the young man I had read about on Facebook.
Something happened to me that day. It connected me to the
boy who was shot. I was just one person away from it. My kids were going to
school with the kids who were affected by it. I changed me. It gave me resolve
to make a difference, to be a positive voice in the mind of the youth, were so
much negative is spoken over them. I vowed on the deceased young man’s Facebook
page to make his life matter. To make a difference in his community.
Three years later, my husband and I are all in. Coaching,
Bible Study, FCA, camp, prayer, making dinners, encouraging words... I had a
conversation with the same young man from that football practice in 2011, Isaac,
before he graduated about a shirt he was wearing. It that had three young men
on it and R.I.P. across the top. I inquired about the young men on the shirt
and he told me that one was his cousin, one was his older brother and one was
the young man he told me about earlier that was shot from Russian roulette.
“Why?” I asked him. “Why do young men get involved in this
kind of activity?” He began to tell me their stories. Each one of them. What
happened, how they were shot, who was responsible and when it happened? I
listened carefully, trying to find the key to stopping the violence. I asked
him again, “Why does this happen so often in West Fresno?” I asked him. His
answer shocked me, troubles me to this day. “Because we have nothing to do.
People get bored, so they hang out and smoke and drink and get involved in
gangs to have something to do.”
My heart skipped a beat. His answer was so matter of fact. He
was so certain that if there were things to do, less people would get involved
in gangs. He continued to tell me that there are skateboard parks in North
Fresno, but not here. There are lights on at night for basketball in North
Fresno, but not here. There are movie theaters and shopping centers to go to and
do stuff in North Fresno, but not here. Then he continued to articulate his
belief that with those kind of things in their community there would be
positive things to do, jobs to work and poverty would be less. His intelligence
and well thought out response told me he had thought about this many times.
I told him that I was going to do whatever it takes to make
a difference. I shared my passion for the community and how God gave me a love
for the youth in this community. He smiled and said, “Thanks that means a lot
to me.”
Isaac encouraged Bill and I to do what we are doing now. Two
years in the making RAW has become a full time ministry for us. Reaching youth,
showing them how much they are loved and valued is our goal. In doing so, we
found that much of what Isaac said is true. However, the source of violence
stems in a mindset that has been passed down from generation to generation that
affects the way family life happens.
Many of the youth we encounter come from broken homes. There
is no sense of family life that is healthy and safe. In reality, the simple
truth in how to stop gang violence lies in a simple action…. LOVE.
Love covers a multitude of sins
Love never fails
Love gives hope
Love produces value
Love gives purpose
Love multiplies
Love invades
God is LOVE
The practical aspects of engaging young people to steer away
from gangs, violence and drugs can be found in the “things to do” as Isaac
said; but the life changing events that make a difference lie in relationships,
rooted in love and lived out in truth.
Janessa’s mom sat down and many faith based organizations
shared how they are doing their part to help Stop the Violence. I didn’t even
stop to think about the thugs who shot her. Why would I? There senseless
violence took and innocent life.
The next morning I woke up to a foggy day schedule. We all
got to sleep in and I was thankful for some added sleep. My phone beeped and I
looked to see what the notification was telling me. Someone pinned one of my
Pinterest pins; someone liked my Instagram photo; 5 new emails; Full lives on
Candy Crush; Facebook notifications; Instant Messenger. I clicked on the Instant
Messenger to see who sent me a message. I opened it. A mom from Washington
Union wrote:
“Did you hear about Isaac Sears? I am just sad by it all.”
My heart stopped.
“No, what happened?” I responded.
“He was arrested for 9 year old Janessa shooting death. Him
and another gang rival. I will share the link…. Praying for all,” she wrote
back.
“What?!?!? Are you sure? I thought he went to college!” I
typed frantically.
As I waited for her to post the link, I frantically looked
it up. I saw the story on ABC news, clicked it and read. It said Isaac Stafford
and Brian Cooks were involved. Sigh of relief left my lips.
“It said Isaac Stafford…not Sears… thank goodness!!!” I
wrote her back.
“It’s him. Didn’t you see the pic? I don’t know why a
different name” was her quick response.
Her next message was a picture of the two young men
involved.
I started to cry. It can’t be him… There is no way this kid
is involved in this. He had such resolve and focus to go to college and play
basketball and stay out this kind of life, since 3 of the people he loved were
lost to it.
It was him. The young man who encouraged me to do what I do
today. All of a sudden my mind wandered to the Stop the Violence rally. I was
so angry and disgusted at the thugs who did this and gave them no other
thought. But this “thug” was not a thug at all. In fact that would be the last
word I would use to describe him. He was in no means a perfect kid. But
generally kept his head down to do what needed to be done to play basketball in
high school and college.
Another layer of love opened up in my heart.
The first layer was the night I was taking a kid home from
Bible Study. Noah and I were in the front seats and 3 of the boys from Real
Talk were in the back. We were all laughing and joking around, Lecrea playing
in the background. I was following the directions of one of the boys to get to
his house. As I turned the corner, there was a drug deal going down. The guys
at the window saw my 1999 red Cadillac and jumped. The driver opened his door
and pulled a gun on us. I put the car in reverse and punched it harder than I
have ever driven before. My heart was beating out of my chest, “Ummm, is there
another way to your house?” I asked the boy calmly.
We took another way and I dropped him off. I found out that
one of the biggest drug dealers in the West Side had the exact car that we had,
so it was a case of mistaken identity. I was thanking Jesus for protecting us,
when all of a sudden my heart grieved. Instead of going through the what ifs in
my head, as I usually do, I thought about the boy who lived in this
neighborhood. I was devastated that he has to live this out every day. My heart
changed. Instead of thinking about me, I thought about him.
I literally wondered if I could actually reach such a hard
and dark place. I questioned our little Bible Study and pondered if we were
making a difference at all. The fear I usually have, melted away into a puddle
of love for these families and kids, who live in a community that suffers
greatly.
I looked at Isaac’s picture, read all the stories that were
posted about the event and just cried and prayed. I did not know what else to
do. The Lord reminded me of a book I read by Jackie Pullinger, Chasing the Dragon. She went into the
worst city in Hong Kong and dealt with the vilest gangs. Yet, her little Bible
Club began to grow and change an entire city. It moved the hardest gangs to
their knees in faith of Jesus and hundreds and thousands were set free from a
life of drugs, gangs and human trafficking. I realized that is was no different
here. Our little Bible Club was making a difference. Our prayers were effecting
change. Our persistence to LOVE was changing lives.
And so we continue to fight the good fight. Praying for
those who are the shooters, as well as though who have been shot. All need
hope, all need love, all need forgiveness. I am so thankful for Janessa’s
parents. In their forgiveness to Brian and Isaac, they have shown more love
than most. They have partnered with us in showing love to those who many write
off. Their love and forgiveness may be the very thing that brings them to the
saving grace and hope that Jesus has to offer.
Today as I process the grief and the pain of a life gone too
soon and young men, who will bear the burden of it. Today, we press on with the
vision God has put in our heart, believing God is going to bring revival and
hope.
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